The Chronicles of ‘Will Nailah ever get a text back’

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Checkered Coat – Asos

Checkered Pants – Asos

Blue Satin Shirt – Stravidarius (Sold Out)/Alternative: PLT

 

I mean, the title reads me for filth but it is mostly inspired by the fact that my phone is in my hands – once again. I may just set up a 10 sec self timer for the next blog post but we’ll see what happens when it happens.

This outfit is probably one of my favourites of this year, it’s elegant and super classy yet very me, yah girl loves to show a bit of skin and the peek of midriff keeps it feeling ebullient.The suit has a very tailored look to it and it fit so well, it was almost like it had been personally tailored. It made me feel like I was part of the mafia, waiting for Sonny to hit me back about where he dumped the body of our competition. Yeah, I felt mad boasyyy ∞

The perfect fall fit, trench coats as you all know are some of the most versatile collection pieces around and this one goes with almost everything in my closet.

I’m sure some of y’all thought I’d fall off this week – like I can’t even remember the last time I had two consecutive posts but ModainLondres is going to go through a renovation. My next couple of post segments won’t be about style but travel and perhaps, even a personal photography project that I’m working on.

Whatever it be, I’ll be around and I hope you guys are too x

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Reclaiming my Sh!t

 

I haven’t been very honest with myself lately and I’ve been on the outs with myself for some time because of the lack of communication between myself and my self.

Myself being the image that I portray on social media and even the one that I’ve cultivated over years of amassed social exposure/awareness.

My self being the person that I am deep within. The person I’m still learning about and trying to get to know better. The one that all too easily alternates between modes of feeling and quite frankly feels like a mess most of the time.

It’s easy to feel misplaced when you don’t really have any ties to a city or a place you can call home. I grew up in Kenya and although my childhood was calm and pretty fucking good for the most part, it never felt like home. My nationality, the option I choose from the drop down menu is plainly British. My mother grew up in Portugal and it’s where my grandparents and the rest of my maternal side of the family still reside. It’s the country where the fondest of my memories are held and the closest I feel to being home… but that doesn’t matter.

A few years ago I let go of this concept of home being ascribed to a certain place or location, home to me is defined by the people that hold me close. I’m a grandchild of diaspora, Indian in ethnic origin – although the majority of people will claim that I look otherwise – something that low key annoys the fucking shit out of me. Like it’s a compliment not to look like where I’m from? Cool.

I spent a lot of my time growing up wishing I was anything but. Ashamed of my culture because of the stereotypes people would perpetuate. And it took time, a long lengthily time for me to see past the bullshit and actually realise that being Indian was great. I’m from the land of silk and spice, my skin is golden and my culture is so vast and wonderful, so multifaceted that it will take me years to uncover an understanding of just a bit of it. But I didn’t always think like this and it makes me sad because I see so many of us having been through/going through the same shit.

And what makes me angrier is that despite having this tumultuous relationship with myself and my self when it comes to my identity, and attempting to combine these two halves in synergy with each other. Which is an entirely personal process. People will still unsettle me with their value judgements on one over the other. They will feign shock when I tell them where I’m from and then claim that I am too different to be what I am.

I mean apart from the generalised statement of how odd it is that I studied a humanity at university and not a science or business/law related subject. I won’t lie I really had to talk my parents around to accept my choice and I’m not certain they think I made the right one *they definitely don’t think I did. One of the worst things I’m constantly told is, ‘you don’t look Indian’ and to me, that’s like a slap in the face.

For someone that never felt like she belonged anywhere, I’ve had to grow into myself, to fill out the spaces that felt hollow because I felt like I was lacking. Being Indian, being part of an Indian community is something I very much value and treasure as part of my identity. Again, it took me a long ass time to feel that way but once I did, I regained a part of my self. I reclaimed it.

So being told ‘you look South American or Spanish’ – despite knowing that the people that say that shit mean it as a compliment, is a double edged insult to me. First and foremost, Indian women come in many shades, forms and features; they are as multifaceted as their culture. So to state that I am anything other, makes me feel othered, as if women from my culture all have a specific genome that ensures they all look the same.

And I have said this to people before, wherein they’ve started to backtrack and claim to ‘mean it as a compliment’ Biiiiiiih how do I take you saying I look like I’m from another ethnic background as a compliment? You trynna say Indian women aren’t caramel skinned honey’s?? (Not that I’m claiming to be but you know what I mean). Like don’t pass off your internalised passive prejudice against Indians as a compliment, you’re probably unaware that you hold such a sentiment within you and that’s cool. Ignorance is bliss and all that but I will set you straight on it.

But then, there’s also the issue of not being welcomed within the brown skinned community, specifically because I don’t always look like I belong and I’ve particularly felt that through certain social media platforms. There’s such great pages on Instagram in particular that uphold Indian women and celebrate their sisters but despite the array of shades that are out there, there’s certain one’s that are kind of left out of the social narrative. Being too ‘dark skinned’ won’t get you a place on certain social feeds and neither will not looking ‘Indian enough’ and for a community that claims to be all about the brown skinned diaspora/sisterhood – that’s pretty hypocritical.

This has been something that’s circled my mind for a long, long time and it feels heavy for me to put it out on my blog, because, well, it’s personal. But I also want to know people’s thoughts and feelings on the matter.

 

So please comment and let me pick your brain.

 

Fenty Beauty

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There is nothing that Robyn Fenty can’t do. She’s a pop star, fashion icon/muse, sock designer and now, a beauty mogul.

Her new cosmetics line ‘Fenty Beauty’ has an all-inclusive ethos and so there is something for everyone, no matter his or her skin colour or type. There are 40 shades of Fenty foundation to pick from, the tones ranging from very pale to very dark with tonnes of in-between shades that often get left out. The brand also offers bespoke colour matching, so if you can’t find your shade, they’ll mix it up for you.

Asides from the impressive range of tones within the PRO FILT’R foundations, they are also very light on the skin, creating a smooth almost matte glow. Similarly, the Match Stix Matte Skinstick comes in 20 shades and provides fuller coverage due to its creamier, thicker consistency. Both choices of foundation sit lightly on the skin and remain incredibly breathable even when layered to build up coverage. The exuberant and youthful glow present within her range comes from Rih Rih’s own tried and tested makeup routine, each product was then engineered to accompany the creation of the ‘Fenty Face’. Additionally, the hexagonal shapes of her compacts as well as her tubular products are not only cute but also practical; the magnetic packaging clips together in a way that is truly satisfying.

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[Photo credit: Fenty Beauty]

The highlighters, in my opinion, are gag worthy! Trophy Wife is a golden hue that when brushed onto the skin illuminates one’s cheekbones and brows with a plethora of golden sparkles. Seeing is definitely, believing and I had to try it for myself to truly appreciate the magnitude of the magna-gold. Another favourite was the duo highlighter Ginger Binge/Moscow Mule – a beautiful cinnamon crimson sheen that dazzles on any skin tone.

One thing I have never really been interested by has been blush sticks or any sort of shimmer stick – to me they’ve always, kind of been a shtick. But that was before I met Yatch Life. The shimmer stick glides effortlessly onto the skin, dispensing just the right amount of product that you can always double up on if you need more. It’s super blendable, which is always a great thing but the colour – an almost pale baby pink – is manipulated on the skin and takes on a pink gold sheen that could easily be used anywhere. And I do mean anywhere. Be it brow bones, cheekbones, cupid bows, the inner corner of your eye, the whole of your eyelid. The options are limitless. The other shades in the Shimmer Stick range were just as enticing, Confetti – a beautiful light blue purple sheen with navy sparkles was a second favourite of mine and the colours Rum and Ridiiic were just as smoky and fun as their names.

Rih Rih has done us proud with the tonal inclusivity of her range – not that we might have expected any less. The products are fun and exciting to use, as she asserted ahead of the launch “Makeup is there for you to have fun with. It should never feel like a pressure. It should never feel like a uniform. Feel free to take chances, and take risks, and dare to do something new or different.”

Feminist Flare

 

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T-Shirt – Pimkie

Trousers – Zara

Sliders – Fila

Eyewear – HM

I don’t often shop at Zara but they have done well by me on the last shopping excursion I had (R.I.P Overdraft). These pants are probably my favourite thing in the world at the moment, they give me so much life with the socket buttons at the bottom half that can be fastened to show a sexy bit of leg (and give you a bit of the breeze in warm climates) or kept shut to give a more demure kind of look. They remind me a bit of speed racer (and I just googled the cartoon to see if that made sense) with the colour scheme and I can totally see him rocking these if he were a bit more fashion orientated – I mean the red scarf is still a look and who know, maybe I’ll incorporate that staple into a look with these beauties at some point.

The shirt is a simple little statement that I rock to the core, after all – FUCK THE PATRIARCHY! is definitely one of my favourite phrases (and genuinely, fuck it to hell and beyond). There has been a rivulet of pro feminist protest T-shirts this year, with Marc Jacobs (amongst many other designers) including them within their brands and I have wanted one for quite a while now, so when I saw this simple little number at Pimkie, I thought, why not? I want one, it’s super cheap, let’s get one! So I got it. I think style is an incredibly personal expression of one’s self and I’m with the idea of having my clothes express my thoughts, what I stand for and believe in, as well as what I don’t.

Now I wasn’t partial to sliders for a very long, long time but a good friend of mine (S/O to Princess Fabia) swore by the comfort of hers and I gave it a go with the FILA sliders. I’ve got to admit that she was right, they are by far the most comfortable shoes I have ever had and they’re pretty cute too (and they match the colour scheme of the trousers!). I went pretty bare on the accessories with this one, my fashion shades from H&M were the only thing I had on. And they kind of paint the world in sunlight when they’re on your face – something I appreciated very much in London (Lisbon, not so much)

Overall, I’m just really excited to make the most of my cute ass pants. Look out for more on ModainLondres soon!

 

Draped Drip Drop

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Top – Noisy May

Trousers – Topshop/Alternative

Heels – Pull&Bear

Olaaa,

I’ve been waiting to wear this outfit out for weeks and finally got a chance to a couple of days ago when it got cooler in the evening for me to don the peg trousers and long sleeved open drape top. I think exposed backs have an increasingly sexy allure and although, I don’t show mine often, I feel incredibly confident when I do.

On a side note, I also really hate wearing skinny jeans at the moment so these trousers (like the others I’ve been wearing recently) gave me room to breathe and just slouch/relax ygm? (You get me?) The heels were also a great find in Pull&Bear’s outlet store (I got them for 10 euros less than you would have at normal stores – still a bargain haha) and they are comfortable to walk in for hours thanks to the thicker heel and sole.

I also leave Lisbon in a couple of days and it’s breaking my heart to go so soon. I usually stay for five weeks or so but I’ve got a lot going on with prepping for third year and various projects and cut my visit to three weeks… which feels kind of odd. The familia is as sad as I am to see me leave and honestly, this summer, like every other has really changed my perception on certain things. It is in this city that I learn more about myself and revert to my true form, around kin and kind that feel the same.

I’ve also got a lot of cool ideas for Modainlondres and the inspiration that has stemmed for this verao (summer) is definitely going to stick around and materialise very soon!

Until then,

Ate Ja xxx

Pinstripes in Portugal II

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Top – Missguided

Trousers – PrettyLittleThing/Alternative – ASOS/Missguided

Shoes – Topshop

Choker – ASOS

 

Ohayoooo Gozaimasu/Good Morning !

I’m attempting to learn Japanese at the moment and thought I’d test out my slight conversational skills at the start of this post. So, as you can see, the pinstripes are back. I sort of stocked up on these trousers on impulse when PLT went on sale earlier this year. And they are so lightweight and airy that I didn’t get to wear them until I hit warmer climates. That being said, they are truly a Godsend in this heat .

Pairing the camel pinstripes with a similarly vertical stripped tie front crop top that cinched this look at the waist, created a well proportioned svelte figure. Something I aim for in most of my looks to kind of balance the scales as I’m a lot smaller up top than at the bottom. The flower choker is also one of my most favourite finds from this year and it complemented the strong power stripe look by adding a certain feminine softness.

I’m going to disclose a slightly embarrassing fact now. I actually fell down the stairs during this blog shoot and put on a brave face for the last two pictures. I’m really clumsy and honestly, I’m surprised I hadn’t fallen down them before then. I guess I’m trying to supply a moral to my little story here, you’ll fall down stairs in life but as long as you get up and hustle through, you’ll be alright.

Until the next post,

Beijinhos xxx

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Pinstripes in Portugal

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Top – H&M

Trousers – PrettyLittleThing (Sold Out)/Alternative – ASOS

Shoes – Topshop

Knotwrap – Vintage

Olaaa from sunny Lisboa!

So, I’ve been a bit slow with the blog recently but this dizzying Portuguese heatwave has had me avoiding any sort of manual/not so manual labour. It sort of sucked the energy out of me for the last week or so but I’ve decided not to let it get to me anymore (also it’s letting up so I don’t really have any excuse to)

This outfit was one of the three I actually wore that day, this heat has got me changing outfits more so than I ever have but it was definitely my favourite. The wide leg vertical stripes are so flattering on one’s figure and have a really slimming effect asides from elongating the length of the leg. Pairing it with a simple ribbed high neck vest then created a sort of effortlessly chic look that I jazzed up with my fish skeleton (moons and suns?) earrings and headband. The latter was a lucky find in a Parisian vintage store earlier this year and only cost me a Euro (vintage stores in Paris are the one people)

The silver accents on the boot buckles with the earrings then gave this look more of a colour coolness that alternatively fit right into the vibe I was feeling at that point. I was feeling very cool ngl – the shade from the tree helped too.

I’ve been having a lovely time in Lisbon so far, it really is a city that captured my heart almost instantly. Although, I won’t lie, I hated it as a child. Having to spend a month or two in another country away from friends and the like wasn’t something I appreciated but it’s grown on me over the years. My mama’s family here definitely helps (they’re all crazy and I love them to bits!)

I’ll have another post up very, very soon.

Until then, ate ja xxx